I am a stay at home momma to two of the most amazing kids. I have the sweetest husband in the world. So, why do I feel so lonely?
When I have time, I see tv shows which seem to always include ladies with die hard best friends that would go to any length to stay that way and just plain be. Oh wait, even on Facebook my eyes seem to see the banter between BFF’s. Or maybe that’s something that I have just made up in my tangent memory. Lol. Whatever the case, it’s made me realize that being a mom (who is home most days of the week for each of those 24 hours) has made me almost a shut-in. Or better yet, a girl with no real close gal pal.
Now with an almost 1 Year old, I look at the past year and see the reason I stayed home so often…being that sweet baby girl needed constant feedings (which I so faithfully did)….Yes, Good mom. hehe. But in that I’ve seen where my friend meter has been in lack mode. Yes, I do enjoy my time at home. I love being with my kids…but a girl has got to get out.
As a social being, I long so badly to hang out with a really great girl-friend and just plain be girls. I mean it’s one thing to have a set amount of time to myself away from my adorable babies and hubby, but for some reason…even if I had that time set aside I’d wish to spend it with someone I could talk to and listen to as well. Someone who, despite all my failings, still decides to stay friends with me.
Why is this time period, with littles at home, spent wishing for a good listener or great conversation with somebody like me? Is there someone out there like me? I can’t be alone.
I gotta keep in mind:
Psalm 73:26King James Version (KJV)
26 My flesh and my heart faileth: but God is the strength of my heart, and my portion for ever.